It's been a rough few months.
I didn't get the job. I know I should be happy to be employed at all, but it's still a big disappointment. I worked really hard for it.
Worse, my dog died a week ago yesterday. I miss her SO MUCH. My awesome terrier mutt was my constant companion and confidante for the past nine years. She was with me through divorce, coming out, and more. She had a wonderful life with me, and then with me and my DGF, but it was too short and I'm angry and sad and left with a staggering amount of debt for the treatments we gave her for her rare, aggressive form of liver cancer. She was worth every penny, but that doesn't make the debt go away--it just makes it feel worse in the wake of my canine soulmate's death.
Missing your dog and being depressed about debt and getting rejected for stuff you very much want is weird and lonely and isolating.
Wow, this is not only a depressing blog entry, but a boring one. I'll tell you what might make me feel better. Send me a picture of you (any BW reader, butch, femme, male, female, straight, bi, whatever) and a dog. And I will put all the pictures on the blog. And maybe those pictures will cheer me up.
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