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It's been a rough few months.
I didn't get the job. I know I should be happy to be employed at all, but it's still a big disappointment. I worked really hard for it. Worse, my dog died a week ago yesterday. I miss her SO MUCH. My awesome terrier mutt was my constant companion and confidante for the past nine years. She was with me through divorce, coming out, and more. She had a wonderful life with me, and then with me and my DGF, but it was too short and I'm angry and sad and left with a staggering amount of debt for the treatments we gave her for her rare, aggressive form of liver cancer. She was worth every penny, but that doesn't make the debt go away--it just makes it feel worse in the wake of my canine soulmate's death. Missing your dog and being depressed about debt and getting rejected for stuff you very much want is weird and lonely and isolating. Wow, this is not only a depressing blog entry, but a boring one. I'll tell you what might make me feel better. Send me a picture of you (any BW reader, butch, femme, male, female, straight, bi, whatever) and a dog. And I will put all the pictures on the blog. And maybe those pictures will cheer me up.
11 Comments
Jan
5/23/2014 02:49:30 pm
No photos, but much love. Losing animal companions is so hard.
catmo
5/23/2014 09:48:17 pm
I am so sorry. It truly is a hurt like no other. It catches you at the worst moments too. I wish there was some way to make it better, but we all know the only way, is not possible. You're not alone Lil buckaroo, you are not alone.
Denise Grim
5/23/2014 11:53:46 pm
I'm very sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself.
My heartfelt condolences. I cried like a baby for months after my old dog Lena died. It is a terrible loss, and a lot of grief to deal with (not easily understood by those who don't have dogs).
Susan McMillen
5/24/2014 09:54:41 am
Wow...heavy few weeks...sorry...been there, can totally commiserate on all aspects...wishing you peace and laughter soon to come...
Zed
5/25/2014 01:19:47 am
Here ya go BW! http://imgur.com/hwo31Nx That's me and Kate... and BTW, Kate is old now and can't jump like that anymore. I fear it may be her last summer with us. So we got a puppy! http://imgur.com/GOoMcGA Sorry for the camera eye in the puppy shot. You should totally get a puppy. It only ruins your life for a few months until they are out of their teenage time :)
zed
5/25/2014 02:42:40 am
One more for ya...no humans in it but hey. http://imgur.com/EbIuiit
Tracy
5/25/2014 01:23:04 pm
Saddened to hear of the loss of your beloved doggie. My condolences to you and yours. I hope these pics help ease ease the pain in your heart. We love our puppies (Ralph & Majesty are 12yrs old!) We're grateful for the happiness and unconditional love that they bring to our lives. Love your blog!
jomo
5/25/2014 06:16:59 pm
My litlle angel Amy died 20 months ago.
mindy spruce
7/19/2014 12:48:57 pm
Im so sorry for your loss i know what your threw .,I lost my dog last month of bone cancer .didnt know he had it until morning he couldnt walk we took him in the emergency hospital at 4 oclock in the morning and they took exray of he's leg and said he had bone cancer and ge broke his leg. Abd it was all threw him.and the best thing for him is to put him down .You wouldnt of knowed it he was running around the day before. Chasing. His birds and chipmunk s. I miss him like crazy .I sebt you a piture of Rudy. Leave a Reply. |
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