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Q&A: Tips for Teen Butches

8/2/2011

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Many of you awesome readers have started sending me questions.  (Keep the emails coming.  I love hearing from you guys!)  I write each of you back individually (well, eventually--sometimes I get a backlog--but I'll get there; I promise!), but it occurred to me that I should occasionally post Q&As that might apply to other readers.  So here's BW Q&A installment #1!  K writes:

I know you didn't identify as a butch until a bit later in life, but do you have any advice on being a butch as a teenager? I just graduated high school, and I've always had difficulty relating with other people because I've never really known any other butches.

I've always been a bit of a butch (hanging with  boys, falling in love with girls, and playing a more 'masculine' role in my short lifetime), and my parents have allowed it. They were accepting when I came out to them. Also, during my entire childhood, my peers never gave me guff about it. However, I can't help but feel out of the loop when none of them understand the difficulties of a butch female.  I was hoping you'd have some tips on how to find other butches around you (other than the obvious, look for a girl that looks like a boi.)

Dear K.,

Being butch as a teen can be tough, and I'm glad to hear that even if they don't always understand you, your friends and parents support you--that's awesome (and all too rare!). 

It's strange being the only one you know who's like you, isn't it?  Sometimes you probably feel like you're from a different planet (or that everyone else is).  Fundamental assumptions about gender are built into virtually every facet of life in most modern cultures--from bathrooms to clothing departments to Little League.  When I was growing up, these divisions never made any sense to me--and the REALLY weird part was that they seemed to make perfect sense to everyone else. 

Funnily enough, I sort of always understood that I was "butch"--indeed, long before I realized I was gay.  There was something visceral about masculinity for me.  I never had crushes on girls as a kid or a teen (I was too busy trading baseball cards, reading sci-fi, and playing basketball), but all the other signs of butchness were there.  I wasn't just another "tomboy"--it felt permanent.  I knew there was something elemental that separated me from my female friends, though I didn't know what it was.  You are already way ahead of where many of us were in our teens!

Later in life, when I came out and started to meet other butches, I finally understood what I "was."  Indeed, this is one of the many reasons why I identify as butch.

You're right that butch buddies can be super important (see my post about the topic here).  And they're not always easy to find when you're young.  Here are a few ideas I have for how you might cope.  Some involve ways to meet butches; others are just general advice for life as a youngish butch.

  1. Get to know as many other lesbians as you can.  Our networks are amazing, and non-butches tend to know butches, too.  If you tell them  you wish you had butch buddies, I bet they'd be willing--even eager--to set up a "friend date" for you.  I've found that friends slightly older than me (C, C, D, B, I'm talking to you!) can offer insight that I lack.
  2. Online sites can be great places to meet people near you.  You definitely have to be careful (meet in a public place, never give out personal info, etc.).  But sites like okcupid.com are great places to find other butches.  Take a risk and reach out to a few who look boi-ish.  Be explicit that you're not looking for a date with them (assuming you're not).  Say that you're recently out and are looking for a couple butch buddies to hang with.  Most of us understand how tough it is to be the only butch in town. 
  3. Join groups or teams that other butches are likely to join.  These include softball teams, hockey teams, hiking or backpacking groups (e.g., Gay and Lesbian Sierrans), and geocaching groups.
  4. You can sometimes meet other butches at public places, but *you* will usually need to approach them.  This is scary, especially because some of us aren't friendly at first.  But for every five times you get brushed off, you're going to have at least one great conversation.  Places to start: feminist bookstores (or any bookstores... or libraries...  we butches seem to adore print media), sporting events, independent coffee shops, rock concerts, concerts featuring lesbian musicians, art museums, and dog parks.  As a conversation opener, try asking a question.  Many of us love offering our expertise.  Be sure to ask something that requires explanation (e.g., "What are some other good dog parks around here?").  You can also offer an opinion of your own and see if she takes the bait (e.g., "I love the lattes here, but they close way too early").  If you have a DGF, mention her so the butch you're bro-mancing doesn't think you're hitting on her (well, unless you are).  Other ways to let a butch know you're not hitting on her: maintain a fair amount of physical distance and sprinkle the word "dude" liberally into the conversation.  Want to know a secret?  Many butches want other butch buddies, but we're too shy and self-protective to show anyone--least of all other butches--our soft teddy bear selves until we really trust them.
  5. An online community can  serve as a decent placeholder until you can move somewhere the bois roam free.  In the spirit of shameless self-promotion, the Butch Wonders Facebook fan page is an excellent spot for that!  Many of the blogs I've listed in the "Blog Roll" column to the right can put you in touch with some cool folks, too.
  6. Read books written by/for butches.  Some good ones: Butch is a Noun by S. Bear Bergman, Crybaby Butch by Judith Frank, and Stone Butch Blues by Leslie Feinberg.  There's even a butch cookbook!  Ivan Coyote also has some wonderful stuff, from stories to columns to spoken word.
  7. Watching butch comedians can be really affirming--not only does someone "get" you, but helps you see the humor in your butchness.  To start you off, here's Tig Notaro on gender mistakes, Julie Goldman on shopping for formalwear, and Sabrina Matthews on lipstick.
  8. If you're comfortable with it, discuss some of your butch-girl challenges with straight (male or female) friends.  I've found that although my straight friends don't always "get" what I'm talking about, they can offer useful insight and be great sounding boards.  I've sometimes been surprised that things I thought made me "different" were things my friends didn't even notice.  We've also had terrific conversations about things like the meaning of clothes and the roots of attraction.
  9. When you're in a position to move--for college, a job, whatever--go somewhere you'll be comfortable.  You probably don't need to find a lesbian mecca, but if community is important to you, know that there are some places you'll find it and others you won't.  Not all gay-friendly cities are identical, either.  Some places, there will be lots of butchy types (Berkeley/Oakland, Seattle).  Other places, there will be lots of lesbians but few butches (*cough* L.A. *cough* Chicago *cough*).  Check out the scene and talk to people there before you move.  
  10. Be true to yourself!  You're already headed in that direction.  Be proud of who you are.  Own the label "butch."  Or redefine it.  Or eschew it altogether.  Be open-minded and confident.  Develop your aesthetic and your attitude.  Chances are, there are other future butches looking on from the sidelines who are just mustering up the courage to join you. 

I hope other readers will weigh in with their ideas, too.  But one more thing: Even after you find your community and your butch buddies and are comfortable in your own skin, don't forget what isolation felt like.  Five or ten years from now, a young butch will come up to you at a farmer's market or a baseball game and ask you some inane question to start a conversation.  I hope you'll greet her with a smile and a fist bump. 

3 Comments
Cat
8/2/2011 06:35:06 am

Fantastic advice. Love the last bit especially...I cannot say enough..how wonderful it would have been to have had even ONE person acknowledge me as a "baby butch", one person to say..."hey, your OK". Times are better now, but not for everyone. We need to be aware, and able to spread a protective "wing" if needed. Hell even a friendly wink could make all the difference in a kids life.

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Rachel link
8/2/2011 06:44:38 am

well this isn't so much more helpful advice (you got that covered anyway) as a more general comment. Baby butches are freakin adorable!!! :)

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K.T.
8/2/2011 08:09:51 am

I can't thank you enough for your advice. I've actually been thinking of going to university up in Seattle next year, so that'll be really nice to have the big community. I remember the last time I visited Seattle, I spent hours wandering through the Capitol Hill neighborhood and it was pretty LGBT-centered. Well, I'm off to find me some butch buddies! :D

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